MEMORIES & THE BEGINNING OF MEANING

I suppose The Unforgettable Fire remains, for all intents and purposes, my "first" U2 album. That is, not at all the first one I heard or the first one that excited me about U2's fresh, varied, hard-to-categorize sound, but the one I first remember playing endlessly. The one to first sink into my bones, as the spinning of it on the turntable or in the cassette deck built and sustained - in my bedroom or in my car - an entire aural environment, an ambience all it's own (thank you, producers Brian Eno and Daniel Lanois). Yes, the tape deck in the car. That was significant. The album was released on October 1, 1984, and just under a month later, in the fall of my junior year of high school, I turned 16, allowing me to drive at all hours on my own. For the teenage driver in the 1980s, and for boys, especially, the tape deck and the ability to rule over what blared from it, was, without question, as important as the car itself. And let's be clear: the 1977 Audi Fox I drove, with it's 4-speed manual transmission connecting a ferocious 83 horsepower to the pavement had very little going for it in the sexy or speedy departments. So, I upgraded the tape deck and speakers and added an equalizer, recorded The Unforgettable Fire - like so many others - from vinyl onto a TDK SA-90 medium-quality, blank cassette tape, and played the hell out of it. For nearly the next five years.

Surely the April 1985 concert experience described in the previous post also accounts for the place-of-pride in my memory that The Unforgettable Fire holds. For one thing, there was a short burn-time from first hearing the record in October to catching that first, in-person glimpse of U2 live just over seven months later. The intervals would have been pretty minimal between first hearing the songs, eagerly sharing them with each other, the announcement of the tour, the purchase of tickets, and the making of plans (the trip was out-of-town and overnight, after all), with constant anticipation throughout. While, on one hand, the days surely passed incredibly slow for a bunch of 16-year-olds in the midst of the headiest days of high school drama and angst, they also would have been days of truly enjoying - together - our favorite new music - and not just the latest U2, either. While preparing a sermon for my homiletics class in seminary, I believe in 2007, the appointed scripture brought to mind a scene from that same fall of 1984: an impromptu tag football game on a cold, overcast November Sunday after lunch, as a bunch of us waited to get on the bus home. We'd spent the weekend on retreat at Young Life's Windy Gap camp in the mountains of North Carolina, just a bunch of high-schoolers curious about how we were supposed to be better followers of Jesus amidst the turmoil and questions and dilemmas of our young lives . . . but mostly just to be together, away from home, goofing off (up to and including 'romantically'), and forgetting school for awhile. And what really, really stood out for me as I remembered that moment? What held the scene together in my mind's eye? R.E.M.'s Harborcoat blaring from the cassette deck on someone's boom box: "A handshake is worthy, if it's all that you've got."

All that's to say, I suppose, that our music was very important to us in those days. Our memories are closely and powerfully associated with the music. Each of us in the middle-class American suburbs could easily speak of a "soundtrack to our lives:" the best memories almost always come with a song or album attached.

So, my first U2 show was focused on this funky album named after an art exhibit about the 1945 atomic bomb attacks on Japan . . . this funky album with it's purple cover and fuzzy, mystic photos of the band hanging around castle ruins in Athlone, Ireland . . . this funky album with its mystic ambience. No wonder I remember these songs so fondly, even if only one or two stand out as all time favorites. Heck, it was my first big rock'n'roll show of any kind. First overnight trip with friends and no parents. First time cheering and singing at the top of my lungs with around 12,000 others. First time seeing campaigners for Greenpeace and Amnesty International in the hallways outside the arena. Hmmm . . . what was that all about? Environmentalism? Human rights? I was intrigued and could begin to see the connections with the themes in certain U2 songs (Pride, with Martin King it's focus, being the most obvious) and the increasingly clear religious, social, and 'political' commitments this band sang about, talked about, tried to live out . . . yes, the human commitments U2 was bringing to light in a variety of ways.

More in my next post on specific songs from The Unforgettable Fire and the meaning they came to have for this fan and seeker - of the cool, of the musically inventive and moving, of the truthful, and sure . . . of the holy.

To paraphrase the Beatles, "It was 30 years ago today. God and Paul McGuinness told the band to play!"

Yes, thirty years ago tonight, more or less around the moment I'm writing, U2 was wrapping up their show at The Omni in Atlanta, Georgia  - on the 5th leg of their Unforgettable Fire tour - with a blazing, raucous version of their signature anthem "Gloria" - composed, incidentally, in the form of a canticle ("little song") like those used in Morning or Evening Prayer in the Episcopal Book of Common Prayer . . . and then, to bring us down softly and send us on our way with a new song on our hearts, there was "40."

I waited patiently for the Lord.
He inclined and heard my cry.
He brought me up out of the pit,
Out of the miry clay.

I will sing, sing a new song.
I will sing, sing a new song.
How long to sing this song?
How long, how long, how long...
To sing this song?

As the band left the stage, one by one, the audience of 12,000 or so continued to sing the chorus in which they'd already joined: "How long to sing this song? How long, how long, how long...To sing this song?" Then the house lights came up. Some kept singing, even as they filed out of their seats and into the corridors of the basketball arena. What I remember most vividly, though, of the whole night - my first U2 show, at the impressionable age of 16.5 - is that the singing of "40" continued, erupting sporadically from pockets of exhilarated teenage and college-age fans: as hundreds of us surged into the MARTA station entrance; as the station attendants simply held up the metal boxes from the turnstile machines to catch the coins and tokens we tossed; as we stood on the platform waiting on the next train; indeed as we clambered onto the train and surged off toward the northern Atlanta suburbs to find our cars - or even our parents - waiting to ferry us home.

We kept bursting into song: "How long to sing this song? How long, how long, how long...To sing this song?"

I've never ever experienced anything quite like it. I had been introduced to the liturgy - the worshipful atmosphere and ethos of a U2 concert - and been a witness to how that ethos was carried right out of the room, like a torch carries the light from the fireplace out into the darkest of nights . . . held up, held onto, for as long as we concertgoers could manage.

Nearly 10 years later I'd made a new friend during my time as a grad student at UGA in Athens. Jeff had grown up in the Atlanta suburbs, like me developing a keen interest in history, culture, and politics. Equally important at that moment, though, he also loved good rock-n-roll that had a point of view, a story to tell. Indeed he'd become skilled enough on the guitar to be a part of a true garage-band, the dream of every male GenXer teen. Come to find out Jeff was at that 1985 show, as well . . . and what did he remember first and foremost? Singing "40" in the MARTA station, of course. Are you convinced, yet, that for those present, April 29, 1985 at The Omni was pretty special moment?

What else do I remember about that show? Oddly, perhaps - given how it marks the "official" beginning of the significant impact U2's music would have on my emotional, spiritual, and even intellectual development - I'm short on memories of the music itself, save for the almost haunting atmospherics the band created, much like on the Unforgettable Fire album itself. Now that, thanks to the stupendous Internets, a quick search pulls up the set list, I'm actually quite frustrated I don't remember more. For instance, this show was almost certainly the only time I've heard U2 play live their wonderful early songs "11 O'Clock Tick Tock," "Seconds," and "Two Hearts Beat As One." They simply stopped playing these songs live after 1985. . . and there you go. I'm missing out on those memories.

For a little help, tonight I called my friend Greg, who trekked with me and several other high-schoolers from 2.5 hours away for the show - and asked what he remembered about it. The key moment for him was the song "Bad," a lament for victims of drug (esp. heroin) addiction that the members of the band knew in their native Dublin, Ireland. Though he likely would have heard it a few times already, from spinning the vinyl edition of 1984's album "The Unforgettable Fire," Greg said that the version at the show solidified the song in his mind as U2's best. Ultimately, even with 30 years gone by, he can't think of a better song, by anyone, ever. Indeed, he recently convinced his youngest son to do a 5th-grade poetry essay on "Bad." Talk about hard-core GenX parenting...

Aside from the magical ending described above, I remember . . . Bono's bringing up a very lucky duck from the front row to join him onstage and play guitar for "Knockin' On Heaven's Door." There was some discussion about the chords required, some assurance that the fan could handle it, and off they went. All of us garage-band/artistic-rocker wannabees were floored...and jealous.

Then, there was Bono's enthusiastic introduction of his father, Bob Hewson, who was attending his first-ever U2 show in North America that night. As I recounted to my friend Greg Garrett for his book We Get to Carry Each Other: The Gospel According to U2, Bob was not terribly excited to be singled out in this way - a spotlight trained on him as he stood by the soundboard - and he shook his fist in (drunken?) anger at his younger son. Paul, a.k.a. Bono, always the brash, rebellious one in the family, seemed so proud to have his dad in the audience, so eager to please - yet the exchange was an early indicator for us, the fans, of how their tumultuous relationship (Bono's mother having died when he was 14) would be the inspiration for so much good music.

I do have a fleeting memory, as well, of feeling proud and special, as a more/less "local," when Bono introduced "Pride" by talking about Martin King as a son of Atlanta. It would be another five years before I would take up graduate studies in Southern history and the 20th-century civil rights movement, but I was already beginning to be curious about just who this MLKJr. had been, and much of the credit for that curiosity goes not to my textbooks or teachers, but to a rock'n'roll band from Ireland. And then, of course, there were the fans - my friends and me among them - singing "40" out the door and into the night . . . we simply did not want the experience - the envelope of beautifully textured sight and sound that evoked so many emotions and longings in us (ultimately spiritual longings, I would come to believe) - to end.

More soon on the beginning of my days as a U2 fan and concertgoer . . . and what this band and their music have meant to me - to my emotional life, my faith, my sense of politics and people, and more - in the coming days and weeks.

What's your earliest memory of a rock-n-roll (or similar) concert? Why has that memory lasted, do you think? What did that experience have you longing for, long after it was over?

Edwin+

Remembering Martin King

I've waited too late into the evening to start into a post, so just a couple of short notes as this year's MLK, Jr. holiday comes to a quiet close...

• U2, their Unforgettable Fire album (famous for it's song about Martin's martyrdom, another titled "MLK," and still others touching on American culture), and their song "40," from the War album, have been on my mind and heart the last few days thanks to a confluence of things. Last Sunday night U2 won the Golden Globe award for best new song written for a movie in 2013 - or something thereabouts - for "Ordinary Love," written for the Nelson Mandela biopic Mandela: Long Walk To Freedom (note to self: don't forget to go see this movie). It seems the song's now been nominated in a similar category for the Oscar. Kudos to the boys from Dublin for this. Though the song doesn't exactly thrill, and I confess I heard none of the competition, I'm nonetheless thankful for their continuing attention to the project of holding up the life and work of Nelson Mandela, and in particular the way their fame could/should continue to spread the amazing story of 'Madiba' and inspire new generations of folks to extend and defend human rights and pursue reconciliation.
  
  Possibly at the exact time the Golden Globes were being awarded, rather than watching, I - the TV-less priest - was reconnecting ye olde turntable for the first time in over a year and subsequently digging around in the LPs, CDs and DVDs stacked in a corner of the den. My beautiful deluxe, box-set edition of The Unforgettable Fire, with CDs and DVDs, emerged from that treasure hunt, the outtakes CD ending up in the regular rotation later in the week.
  
  As if U2 back in the news (and don't forget there's a new album due within a couple months), and a week of nostalgia for the album that truly led to my love-affair with the lads from Dublin weren't enough, at the end of the week I opened the lectionary to prepare for Sunday's sermon (2nd Sunday after the Epiphany, Year A) and discovered the appointed Psalm was . . . you guessed it: 40. It should come as no surprise then - right? - that my first-ever sermon on that particular Psalm text, and even moreso my first-ever solo singing in a sermon, happened this past Sunday, 18 January. It was a real delight - especially the second time around, when it all came off much smoother - to tell the story of my first U2 show, at Atlanta's OMNI arena on 29 April 1985. To tell the story not so much of hearing "In the Name of Love" sung in Atlanta & dedicated appropriately by Bono - a moving moment in it's own right - but instead to tell how the crowd continued to "sing a new song," to sing over and over the closing chorus of "40" after the lights came up, as we filed out of the OMNI, as we filed into the MARTA station, and yes, even after the train left the station. It was a magical night. I hope I never quite forget the feelings of unity and tranquility, in and with such a huge crowd of rapt listeners / worshippers, that I experienced that night as a 16-year-old. I'm thankful this past week gave me an opportunity to remember it, and the lectionary gave me the perfect opportunity to tell that story for the first time publicly, using it as a springboard for the question: What might it look like for us in the Church to sing a new song, such that the world will see - as it did at the first Epiphany - not so much who we are, as who God is, who Christ is, through us, through our presence and work in the the world.
  
  One more, shorter, MLK-related story tomorrow!

Good Episcopal Church resources for the Advent/Christmas/Epiphany cycle

The Episcopal Diocese of Texas has the financial clout and wherewithal to put out some great Christian formation/education resources for the whole Church. These for Advent/Christmas/Epiphany seem to be short, sweet, to the point. Just the kind of help many of us need to "keep the feast" at home, with our families, in our daily lives- using all the holy wisdom built into the church-year.

Keeping Advent at Home

Prayers for lighting the Advent wreath

Family Advent calendar

What is Epiphany?

More ideas from the Diocese of Texas Christian Education office, both for now and for later in the church-year, are here on Pinterest.

Another good-looking church webpage: membership, baptism, and confirmation

I'm always looking for precise, clear, user-friendly ways to talk to folks about ecclesiology . . . uh . . . er, I mean the nature of the Church and how one is brought into it, how one claims the faith for oneself via the life of the Church, and the meaning of baptism, confirmation, "membership," and such as that. Just came across the website of All Saints, Homewood in Birmingham, Alabama and was impressed by many aspects of their "Become a Member" page (even if I'd use a different title!).

Become a Member � All Saints Episcopal Church

Why Are Fewer People in Church? It’s the Economy, Stupid

There are a gazillion articles and blog posts of late - in the wake of multiple high-class surveys confirming same - on the decline in churchgoing & religious affiliation in the U.S. of A. This one, however, seems fresh and a bit more insightful. Perhaps it's the historian in me, but this demographic / sociological / historical data is pretty compelling. Enjoy!

Why Are Fewer People in Church? It’s the Economy, Stupid | Gestating A Church

Trying to attract the young? Churches should change carefully and wisely | By Andrea Palpant Dilley on Faith & Leadership | Faith & Leadership

Thinking about using my blog more, posting stuff here that seems worth holding onto for my own purposes & sharing for the good of the order. Now, to figure out how to have it automatically repost to Twitter & Facebook...

Trying to attract the young? Churches should change carefully and wisely | By Andrea Palpant Dilley on Faith & Leadership | Faith & Leadership